Minding the Blizzard

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I have many thoughts swirling in my head.   One is that I do not feel that well on a day that I want to do many things all at once.  Yes, this is something that happens often, but today I feel that sense of weakness that comes over me post stroke, heart attack and brain bleed.  It comes like a wave and lingers like a fog.

Things I want to do include writing, exercising, cleaning, again with this sink.  Why does it pile up and why is it my arch nemesis.  I have accomplished one ten minute attempt on the exercise bike after four days at the gym.  I did include eating a cinnamon bun immediately after as I used the timer for the buns to force myself to get my butt on my bike.  Cinnamon rolls are a snow day tradition, corned beef when I see a snow day coming and get to the real grocery store.  Today I nailed both, feeling excited about that.  I love when I am prepared and can make our snow day special.

The fire is going strong in the fire place which took a few days.  I was persistent and made sure it was going well last night as losing power is always on the horizon living by the lake and on the side of mountain.  The wind and snow are blowing sideways and we are enjoying our phones, computers and television as we know that could end at any moment.

We have our hand crank LL Bean radio on hand and are charging our electronics in preparation.  My arms are sore and weak today from working out for the first four days of what needs to be a daily routine.  It has also been a while since I have written with my old laptop on my lap in my office with my feet up while looking at the railing on the deck now piling with snow.  My deck chairs are snow covered, yet just seeing them makes me happy as those days are ahead.

Ouch, there goes the pain in my head a piercing short burst.  I know I am not the only person who thinks like I do.  I just love the days when I feel invincible and not vulnerable.  The elements of the blizzard are one thing as we live in the woods.  My strength and lack thereof are my lingering worry.  I want to push myself and take a nap all at the same time.

When a snow day passes and you wish you had done this or that what really matters is that you enjoyed the gift as it was given, nature’s way of saying slow down, evaluate what you have that you really need and brace yourself for the storm, if you are fortunate enough to not have to venture out, be grateful and warm.  One of the upsides to a snow storm is everything you need is simplified and appreciated if you are fortunate enough to have it.

Right now I do, power is on, child is fed and I am writing.  The dishes can wait until after my nap.  Thinking of everyone today and hope you are able to enjoy even part of this day the way you wanted to and find the upside if it is not exactly what you had in mind.

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