Going Through it
When you are going through something, it becomes your present planned or not. I have often thought and said that my idea of getting hit with a left hook is the universes way of telling you to stop and work on what is right in front of you to handle it, right then and right now. There is no time for conversation or excuses. You typically are alone in those trying moments. It is when you reach down in your core to find the strength or the will to keep going through it.
The people that you first text, that first call when you can or are able to, or the call that comes from someone else when they find out (if you are the receiver you know that the shit has hit the fan if it is someone else making the call), someone is “going through it.” You hold your breath to hear who and what waiting for more of how and when.
The more I write the more you know my over, my under and my throughs . I have been fortunate on so many levels and it is those going through moments that have defined what matters to me the most. I also know like many people that the alone times are when it takes the most to find a reason and a will to push through.
On the anniversary of my heart left hook; I drove my son to a team breakfast on this glorious fall morning along the lake. The Adirondack Mountains have come alive with color and the lake is glass. I am not waking up in a hospital with a new pacemaker. We all went through that as a team last fall. I am able to drive our son to his team and be at his game, not missing it like last year.
The heart ordeal led to the brain bleed, from blood thinners, winter. The anniversary of that horrific time is a month away. My team knows all too well, that includes you, thank you for being a part of it, that all of this can change at any moment for any of us.
You also know that after going through my team went over it with my son and I going to see my nephew in Europe this summer. I have a magic eight ball and that will be my book signing give away in the future. I have relied on it and pulled it out of the garbage from time to time, as its triangle reader is a little banged up, and the blue liquid fogs if you shake it. I have learned to turn this old one from side to side while asking it a question and then it provides a clear answer.
I think that says it all when you are going through your own it, remember to slow down, turn to your team that is on your side and the answers will be clear. You will get through it and while doing so plan, dream and pull from your soul what that over moment is going to be.
I died for four minutes last fall and today drove my son to breakfast after taking him alone, by myself to France and Switzerland, but not without the support of our team. Thank you all from the bottom of my upgraded Tony Stark heart.